Woof, it’s been a hot sec! And for once it isn’t due to some self induced catastrophe…just your run of the mill procrastination! Life has been interesting lately, but in a good way. I have so much to update everybody with, but first I wanted to make this post about something I’ve been meaning to now for a few months, which if it isn’t obvious by the picture is yoga.
Awhile back I was going through a rough time. Actually… it seemed like every other second I was going through a rough time, but that isn’t what this post is about. Anyways, I had just unexpectedly lost my job and was thrown into the throes of WTF now anxiety. I was already a huge mess before this happend and adding this fuel to the fire did not help. Its hard to figure out what your next steps are going to be before you’ve learned to walk. So I did what any young adult without a job would do and signed up for an unlimited monthly yoga studio membership.
Let me backtrack a bit first. I had actually signed up to this studio on a Groupon BEFORE I lost my job and had really enjoyed it. I would go before work sometime and it was nice to switch up my routine. The studio was about 10 minutes from where I worked so it was perfect. And then, just like that it wasn’t anymore. I knew I was going to have to apply for unemployment and look for a new job but I wasn’t sure how long either of those would take. With my next source of income extremely uncertain I decided to take the plunge and sign up for unlimited yoga classes anyways.
I. Needed. Something. Too. Keep. Me. Going.
I started going to the studio almost everyday. What else was I going to do with my time? I was depressed, but it gave me something to look forward to everyday and a way to keep moving. I was also applying to jobs like a mad woman. Jobs I never would’ve have ever though of applying to before. I didn’t know what I wanted to do, but I knew I wanted to do something different.
It was an extremely frustrating job search. Here I was in my early thirties and with a masters not getting call backs or interviews for entry level positions. Listen, I know a degree is fine art is going to get me a job as a banker but all the money I spent for my education must make me qualified for something right…..right?!?!?
During this time Yoga became my therapy and something unexpected happened as I started to practice more. I was no longer becoming stressed about my job search. I found myself at peace and truly believing jobs that I did not land were not meant to be. Hearing the mantras that the universe was unfolding exactly the way it should and that giving my best was always enough was incredible for my anxiety and peace of mind.
And guess what… the universe unfolded the way that it should and I got a job I love. I have less time for the studio now, but it holds a special place in my heart. It’s a tad corny but it really did bring me light during a dark time. Besides yoga I have now made a ton of other positive changes in my life as well and I am so excited to share them with everyone, but until then the light in me honors the light in you. Namaste.
❤ Sweeney